One Crazy Morning

Some days it seems like life is crazy and I am going crazy too. Some days like today, I wonder how to hold on when everything and everyone has turned to chaos. Have you ever been there?

Yesterday, my daughter, Hailey, was out of school. We spent the entire day together. It was good bonding time only last night she wanted to sleep in my bed. After much debate and some tears, I got her to sleep in her own bed… BUT, I sat with her until she fell asleep. Yesterday, my son, Gavin, came home from preschool. He whined and fussed all evening. He was tired and worn out. Yesterday, my biggest girl, Rachel came home sad. The work load in 10th grade is getting the best of her and she is struggling to keep an “A” in all of her classes. Yesterday, all of my children needed MOMMY….

Last night, I settled them down. Hailey went to sleep at 9:30pm. Gavin fell asleep at 11:00p.m. Rachel was still awake doing homework when I fell asleep at 11:30 p.m. What a late night for us all. That was my yesterday.

The emotional pull from my children yesterday and the lack of sleep last night was draining on me. I needed time with God to be ready for today. Somebody please tell me why I was looking at both Hailey and Gavin at 5:00 a.m. They were climbing into my bed! They were trying to get to MOMMY….and Mommy was trying to get to God!

It was pure chaos getting ready for school this morning. Gone was my quiet time. Gone was my time of peace and gone was Daddy’s patience with us all.

After dropping the kids at school, I stopped the van and sat for a while. God is not a god of chaos! I tried to pray… that was full of chaos too… Have you ever felt that way?

I looked up at the sky. The clouds were puffy and white but the sky seemed gray. That is how I felt. I wanted to quote every scripture I knew. I wanted to praise God with a song. I wanted to be righteous. I look to hills where my help comes from. That was all that came out. Tears began to fall down my cheeks. Jesus help me!

Jesus, help me! Jesus, give me patience! Jesus, help me make it today! Jesus, Jesus, Jesus!

The tears fell as I started the van and headed for home. I drove and some verses came to mind. I began to sing “The Promise” by Y’anna Crawley. If you have never heard it, google her and listen. Her song will bless you.
I arrived home and sat some more. Jesus, help me today. My life seems crazy. I have so many things on my mind, but I am depending on you to be my help. Please be my peace. You are my God and there is none like you. I love you Lord and I trust you. Help me! I am counting on you and I believe you are able to do more than I can ask or think. Help me. I love you Lord in the midst of what seems like chaos. You are in control… I began to pray and praise my God.

My prayer seemed as jumbled then as it sounds now BUT… when life seems crazy and I feel crazy. I know my God still hears me. He hears you too…

If you have ever been here, share how you made it over. I would love to hear how God met you in a crazy moment.

Lisa